Hi Clarabella
As the others have said, you are so normal, I had a teary stage too when I was approaching my op date. I did so well on the milk diet I did think of continuing and cancelling the op, but that was a fleeting thought that went as quickly as it came in the time it took me to walk for the tea point to my desk !!!!
Your going to get all sorts of emotions running through your head over the next couple of weeks until your op, just hang in there. I, like you have not told anyone outside of my immediate family, (hubby, two kids and sister) mainly because I didn’t want the big song and dance and have to explain myself to all in sundry and you have by no means failed, as you put it. This is you recognising that you need help, asking for it and getting it, we on this forum, and others besides have all been there, you’re not alone.
You don’t say where you are, is there a good support group near you that you could go to. If not we’re all here for you so don’t go through this alone when you don’t have to.
Take care and let us know how you get on, there’s always room on that bench..
Love
Lesley
xxxx